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I'm sorry if what I wrote in my blog hurts you..
I does not know it will break our friendship..
Although this may not be the only reason.
But when I writes tat my mood is at the very very low..
so I didn't know what i'm writing..
And i does not mean what i type
wat i type in my blog is totally different from wat i think
I know i should have not post tat but i also did not notice it..
I did not check wad i wrote so i did not really know wad i write..
But i really care our friendship..
I miss the days before all this happen..
I really love those days
I really wish we can go back to the days tat we are all best friends..
But i think it's very hard to heal everything..
As our friendship breaks is because of many reasons..
Maybe we dun really understand each other
and dun know wat each other is thinking..
I know I dun have the rights to say this as i also dun understand you all well..
But this is really wad i think..
And I hope this will not make things worst..
I'M SORRY!!!!

And this is my last post in blogger..
As this blog has broken our friendship so i does not wan to keep it..
I will change to other website...

love you...7:02:00 PM

Ps.. XP
Did not post anything the few days..
Actually took lots of pic but in camera so did not post it yet..
And too many le..
I will be uploading those pic to facebook or maybe photobucket..
I will give the links tomorrow..
srysry..



Haiz today kana scold by 2 teachers i mean the whole class..
sian lor..
today damn sleepy de..
Not enough sleep sia..
Today is upper sec having assembly & sian lor..
But good also lah no need to have lifeskills lesson..
If have lifeskills lesson comfirm kana scold de...
So we also quite lucky lah..
Although todays assembly is boring but ended very early..
Because of the Mr singh lor talk so much
5 minute bacome 10-15 minute..
Almost fall a sleep sia..
BTW today no CCA sia..damn happy de..
Cause too tired liao...haha
Today Mr Lim's de first period damn serious de..
But second period damn fun de cause lots of laughter lor...
Went home den use com a while..
Sis came home early as she get an MC from doc..
Bro @ home too.. -.-(his gf too XD)
Then we three jiu adjust de internet for damn long de..
And order Mac as my sis & I haven eat our lunch..
Mac was yummy yummy lo.. XD
Than blahblahblah~~~
Than jiu ended up here posting lo.. haha
Some problem with my computer so can't upload the pics to web..
I think tomorrow will be fine..
P.S ar.... hehehehe :D


love you...9:32:00 PM

Went KBox with YeeEn & KiaMin today.. :)
Had lots of fun..
Record a song we sang as I wanted to record it and in the last minute..
So we can't really choose the song we want..
Choosen FeiRenHai de momo..
But can't be put in blogger as it is not a video..haiz..
Maybe I put it in somewhere den give you all de URl someday..
HaHa..

After Singing took pic in toilet.. :)
Fav place to take pic for almost everyone..
Then went to JP this fashion walkwalk..
Went mac ate something..
When walk out saw Guean and HuiChuen..
Talk with them awhile den we jiu go walkwalk le...
After we walk finish shop le go back to mac..
As YeeEn wann buy Frappe..
Then now not saw Guean now is saw Hilda with HuiChuen le..HaHa
Hilda & Guean ate the same Ice-cream sia..
HaHa...
Then we went to take bus wanted to go Comics Shop..
Then saw Guean & her mama on de bus le..
But we did not take the bus cause KiaMin wan buy something to eat..
Then we go wait for the nxt bus..
Damn unlucky my mum called and scolded me for going out..
Then wanted me to go home right away..
Then I didn't go Comics Shop with them le..haiz

And I must say in the morning the rain damn big de..
I still have to cross de road & take bus sia..
Sian hor..haiz







love you...8:18:00 PM

Playing with nicole today..
Posting @ Gladys hse now..
staying here tonight :)
Post again tomorrow :) :)

love you...11:12:00 PM

Today I wake up late.. O.o
Went to Katong myself..
When taking cab from de eunos mrt station
The taxi driver forgotten something sia..
tat is on de meter..
damn funny lor..
Then he charge me $3.50/$3.80[?]
Din not count...hahahaha
But just very worth lah..

Then reach dere bring de laptop down..
Watch drama~
But finish watching le den nth to do liao..
sian lor..
decided to bring my bro's laptop home..
Because wanted to use laptop on bed..haha lazy hor

wtf lor..
Saw a rat..damn big de..
I scream damn loud...cause is just at de door of our shop..
My maid still ask me to go & see..
I dunno wad she saw so i go take a look too...
Is reallyreallyreallyreally very big sia..
damn scary de..
When de rat came nearer our shop,my maid close de door to prevent de rat to come in..
OMG!!!! disgusting sia...
den de rat run to de shop nxt to ours..
de most disgusting thing is de ppl from de other shop go & kick de rat until de front of our shop..
Then de rat died infront of our shop..
I thought de ppl wanted to left de rat dere sia..
If he really left it dere I comfirm go his shop and sweep de rat in his shop...
den he use a plastic bag to get de rat..
yecks.....
nearly vomit....

Feeling not well now..
haiz..
Continue my post maybe later.. :)

love you...6:34:00 PM

Now here i am at my bro's shop..
Tell you the truth lah..
Today my mood damn bad de..
Cry alot of times,of course is no one at home & in my own room..
Sounds EMO hor..Me think so too..
Just now answer a call from my mum(actually alot of times..)she ask me to take cab go bro's shop to help look after..
I was lyk OMG..I just came back from school sia..
& tat is still not the problem..
The problem is we are half way quarreling sia..
Every call she called i have to control my tears & voice..
I don't wish her to heard me crying..
Because everytime I cried she will scold me even more..
Everytime i cried because of my family I will always have the same thinking..
I will think tat maybe i'm not her own child but i know tat is impossible..
But ppl in tat kind of situation will comfirm have tat kind of thinking.
But not for long.. :)
Everytime when we quarrel she will act lyk nth happen & laugh and forget about it..
But i was lyk always think tat wad actually happen..
And I can't even laugh with her..because i will be thinking about de thing we quarrel about..
I also does not mean tat i wann her to quarrel with me just tat i wann her to resolved it in a good way..
I really dunno wad & how my mummmy's brain work..
I also dunno wad kind of logic thinking she had..
In the past i did not go out with my friends very often
I always help her on the weekend to look after her shop..
As for the weekdays i stay at home playing computer as no one at home & I had nth to do..
But when i stay at home she scolded me for staying at home and playing computer too much..
NVM...This is reasonable rite.. Don't you think so??? I think so..
But when I started going out more often den the past she say i go out too often
& said I going out with "bad" friends.. -.-" This also nvm rite..Alot of parents will think lyk tat de..
But de most ridiculous was tat when i went out with my cousins(Guean & Gladys)
You know wad she say..
She scold me for going out with them too often..
wtf..so wad you wann me to do..
Why don't I stay in a prison better,better then getting scolding from her for watever i do..
Everything I do she will always scold me..
When she say I stay at home too often I go out with friends
When she say I go out with friends too often nvm I go out with my cousins
When I go out with my cousins she say I go out with them too often..
So...why don't you tell me what should I do if I don't stay @ home nor go out with friends/cousins..
You called me everyday...no matter in the afternoon or night..
Just to ask me where I am & have i eaten..
When you called if i'm @ JP i will tell you de truth i did not tell you I'm @ home while I'm not..
And what you will say is "wah!!! You now will go out and go anywhere aready hor"
I was lyk LOL, just at JP leh..I can go there easily whenever i want..
And yet you told me that I go too far..
I really don't know what to tell you..
Why don't you tell me to you where is near..
So what you mean is i can only go central izzit..
Can't be rite..
Even when i say i go library she will also ask who I go with and what time will I reach home & also ask me did I really go library..I wann to study you also don't want to believe.
Then how do you want me to explain when I really go library..
Why don't you teach me??I really dunno how..
If it is it I will rather don't tell you anything when i'm going out..
I always wanted to ask you Why can't you believe me??
Am i so not worthy for you to believe me for a little..
Even a little trust you also does not wish to give me..
Because you does not give me your trust towards me I did not get de courage to believe in myself..
I'm a person who can't decided anything for my own..
I always ask my friends/cousins for suggestion..
I ask them for suggestion for even small things lyk what to eat what to buy or even what colour of pe to wear..
I don't know is this come together with me when i'm born..
But the only thing I know is I hate to do this..
Because when my friends/cousins did not tell me what to do I will panic & don't know what to do..
You always said tat I had a better life compare to my sis & bro..
I know tats a truth I know I'm so lucky to be treated like a rich persons child..
From the day I'm born till now (around 15 years)I had never get beaten by my mummy or daddy..
Of course my dad did not beat me before because even he want or I want he also does not have the chance..
My parents divorced when I'm at the age 3-4..
And because of tat I had illness when i'm young tat illness cause me losses alot of precious memory..
I did not had any fun when i'm young..
I can only remember de house will always be empty and only my maid & I will be at home..
I had never felt before the feelings of family..
I don't know the real meanings behind de word FAMILY..
Everytime I reach home no one will be at home..
I know they are working very hard to earn money..
But did they think about what I feel when I reach home and stay in my room nv walk out of the door..
I will also felt lonely & sad..
I'm human..I have feelings..
Most of my friends parents eat dinner with them..
But why can't I ...
I had to settle my own 3 meals myself & eat it alone..
Sometimes I rather don't eat..
But i'm really happy evertime my sis called me and ask me what i wann to eat for dinner..
Because mostly she meant she will be having dinner with me..
Even if only one person eat dinner with me I will also felt happy..
Because I just wann someone to chat with me & watch TV with me while eating the dinner..
Just a small chat will make me happy..
But sometimes I have to say they care too much..
But care too much will always be better den nv care rite??
Although I lyk de feelings of no one at home & I can do anything i wann..
But my mummy will always call even she nv come home..
So it is not a very good thing too...
My mummy stays @ home maybe 2 week 1-2 times..
I don't see her so often..
Even when I get scared and lonely when I'm at home alone no one knows..
I want to go my cousins house to stay over for one night yo slao scold..
Then what you want me to do..
It is really the truth tat I can find myself safe when i'm with my cousins..
Because their mummy will have fun with them..
I also had alot of fun when I'm with them..
I will always find myself warm & safe whenever I'm with them..
I'm always afraid I will forget how she look like, or she will forget how I look like..
Funny rite..
But now when I'm with my mummy I feel like with a stranger..
I don't know what to say and how to say it..
Haiz..woah!!!!
slowlyslowly type out the things i want to say I then realises it came out so long..
Sorry for been so emo for this post..But it can't be help..
Maybe I will encourage ppl don't read this post..haha

love you...5:11:00 PM

blog later..
Not feeling well now..

love you...2:21:00 PM

Too lazy to post longlong..
Also nth much happen today..
Even if have also lazy to type..haha


Domo in my bag..(Gladys's domo)

Domo in my bag..(Gladys's domo)[Gladys's hand]


love you...10:07:00 PM

Today's lesson was bored...
But lucky Mr lian nv come if not more bored..
Get class photo today..Pics of it tomorrow bah..
Den after school went home wait for ShiYun to call me..
She go home den help her mum with something den jiu accompany me go buy Specs..
Try out lots of specs dere..
Actually wann buy 2 de but cause dunno wad colour de specs suit me so just buy a black one..
Den go Pinoeer mall walkwalk at Giant..
Brought Snacks & things tat i took pic of..
Then go my hse downstairs eat & chat..
Aft tat accompany her to bus stop..
Then walk home again :)



Brought at Giant :)

Damn cute de lor this hand sanitizer <3

love you...7:46:00 PM

Went library-ing again although today no school..
Ate happy meal <3
I very good de lor..haha
Ate something at galilee @ de library dere..
Den went back to JP & shopshop..
Saw de bag i wanted ...
Brought it as i'm shareing it with my sis.. :)
Get $$ from her..wahahahaha
jkjk..
I dunhave so bad..
Had Fish & Co for dinner..
Den home sweet home :) <3


Ate de Galilee.. :)

Fish & Co for dinner..




love you...9:07:00 PM